stuff is cool

The orthopedic specialist was supposed to be presenting my case to other specialists yesterday, because he was perplexed by what he percieved on my MRI as swelling in my spinal bones (not the joints, the bones themselves.) I called yesterday afternoon and the nurse had no information. I will call again this afternoon, though she said yesterday “If you haven’t heard from me by the end of tomorrow don’t think I have forgotten you!” meaning, to me, likely I won’t hear from them until next week. I have searched for information about bone swelling and found dozens of different causes. I can’t diagnose myself. I am really getting sick of waiting for answers, but I feel like I am close. Maybe it’s because I am preoccupied with my back, but today it feels strained and tired more than usual.

Meanwhile, EXCELLENT news came yesterday: My friend Kelli’s lymphoma is in remission! She’s still got several weeks of chemo to go, but things are certainly looking bright! Just last week she and I were talking about how bleak things seemed, and now this great news came! I know it doesn’t really seem real for her, especially since she still has to do chemo, but I was bouncing off the walls last night and crying. Just a week ago I cried in Danny’s arms because I was sad and anrgy and scared for her, and now I was crying because I was so happy. It’s so wonderful!